Well Yes, I am blogging again which meant that I am procrastinating again.
The past few weeks have been totally hectic and empty. It is such a waste that I didnt spend more effort to pause and observe things happening around me more closely and figure things out.
Chionging after deadlines just for my survival in university and constantly thinking how to Taichi stuff away certainly will not help to make me grow and mature as a person. But then what to say, I need more self motivation and self control which I always tell myself and then brush them off by switching on my laptop and start watching Korean dramas.
Then again, there are things that I did not miss out.
I feel so proud and ashamed at the same time.
Proud of how my friends around me are actually that mature and living their life more properly, more organized and with more self initiative and responsibility that I thought that was impossible to achieve. Such qualities always seems to be some legendary innate talents that fictitious characters in Dramas possessed.
Ashamed because I do not possessed those mentioned above.
Proud of myself because I made such friends.
Ashamed of myself because I am not such a good friend to those around me.
I realized how my slowness has caused people around me to always have to wait for me. Like a Dua Pai Person. I will try to make a conscious effort from now on to NOT make ppl wait for me. Friends please give me power to achieve this. I do not want to become a dependent person that puts pressure on my friends and exhaust others. ( Quoting Cheon Song Yi from Man from the stars)
Whoever is reading this, thank you. Yes I admire you for your effort to come and read my blog post. You must be a kind soul. Please feel good about yourself. No I am not emokia94. Just wanted to praise my friends around me more. They are that good.
The past few weeks have been totally hectic and empty. It is such a waste that I didnt spend more effort to pause and observe things happening around me more closely and figure things out.
Chionging after deadlines just for my survival in university and constantly thinking how to Taichi stuff away certainly will not help to make me grow and mature as a person. But then what to say, I need more self motivation and self control which I always tell myself and then brush them off by switching on my laptop and start watching Korean dramas.
Then again, there are things that I did not miss out.
I feel so proud and ashamed at the same time.
Proud of how my friends around me are actually that mature and living their life more properly, more organized and with more self initiative and responsibility that I thought that was impossible to achieve. Such qualities always seems to be some legendary innate talents that fictitious characters in Dramas possessed.
Ashamed because I do not possessed those mentioned above.
Proud of myself because I made such friends.
Ashamed of myself because I am not such a good friend to those around me.
I realized how my slowness has caused people around me to always have to wait for me. Like a Dua Pai Person. I will try to make a conscious effort from now on to NOT make ppl wait for me. Friends please give me power to achieve this. I do not want to become a dependent person that puts pressure on my friends and exhaust others. ( Quoting Cheon Song Yi from Man from the stars)
Whoever is reading this, thank you. Yes I admire you for your effort to come and read my blog post. You must be a kind soul. Please feel good about yourself. No I am not emokia94. Just wanted to praise my friends around me more. They are that good.
